5 months you are

Oh Ellie,

We made it to 5 months this past Monday (the 15th).  I can't believe I'm still breastfeeding you.  Every day, every week, every month I feel so blessed to have been able to provide the best for you.  I feed you every 2-3 hours all throughout the day and every 3-4 hours at night.  With each feeding, I feel so thankful that I was able to make enough.

It's been a hard month.  You are cutting your first tooth.  I can see the white coming through your gums.  Any day now it'll poke out of your gums.  That has caused you to become really fussy in the past few weeks.  You've been crying more than ever.  You've been waking up many times at night yelling for me.  You started this really loud yelling thing that's kind of embarrassing.  Haha~

Kaia and Alana never yelled like that before.  It's definitely a first for me.  You seem to get really angry about something and then start yelling really loud and forcefully.  It's so loud that I have to constantly leave places to not be disruptive when we're out somewhere.  Even so, I love you so much.  I adore every part of you, even the seemingly sinful parts.  Haha~

I have a feeling you're going to be quite a handful as you grow up.  So far, you are the most headstrong and aggressive of all.  I pray that we would be able to guide you to channel that passion into something good.

I'm also praying that we make it to 6 months of breastfeeding.  By then, we can hopefully start feeding you some solids so you won't need as much breastmilk.  I'm so excited.  You've been eyeing us whenever we eat and moving your mouth while drooling.  I'm sure you want to eat so badly.  We just have to wait for you to be able to sit up on your own.  I can't wait!