Yes, you are only a little over 2 months and you're already teething.
Your sisters started teething at around 4-5 months. You are drooling like crazy, constantly sucking your entire hand, and extra fussy lately.
I can't believe it. You're growing up WAY too fast in so many different ways.
One thing you can't do yet is hold your head up all the way. I think because you're so adorably chubby, the girth on your neck makes it hard for you to lift your head up. You're so soft and squishy all over and everyone loves holding you super close and tight.
I absolutely adore you, Ellie. I constantly hug and kiss you all over. Whenever you're nursing, I just sniff your hands, hair, whatever I can reach. I love just holding you close and hearing you breathe. You are my gem and I'm so incredibly thankful you're in my life. You have taught me to slow down even more to savor the simple things in life (like laying on the couch with you asleep on my shoulder).
I pray that, as much as I do look forward to all the milestones you'll hit, you won't grow up too quickly. You are my last baby and I want to remember as much as I can, especially your smell and sounds. Those are the things that I treasure the most.
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Friday, February 24, 2017
Growing by the day
Hello my adorable Ellie girl,
You are talking so much lately. Just the other day, while Kaia was talking to you, you laughed for the very first time. Before, you used to have short little shouts here and there that sounded sort of like the beginning of a good laugh, but this time you full on laughed with your head thrown back and mouth wide open. It was the sweetest and cutest sound in the world.
You're only 2 months and 2 weeks old, yet you're already cooing up a storm, smiling from ear-to-ear, pushing super hard with your legs whenever i hold you up onto my lap (almost like you're just about ready to stand on your own), making all kinds of adorable expressions with your eyebrows, eyes, and mouth, sleeping through the night, taking long naps during the day, on and on.
Just a week or two ago, you were sleeping in the car and for short spurts here and there, but this past week you've been going down in the crib downstairs for 2-3 hours. I'm so proud of you. I can't believe how much you've already developed and grown in the past couple of months. I STILL can't believe you're here in our lives, that you're my little baby that I can hold and kiss.
I've been telling Daddy that I'm so much more calm and joyful this time around. It might be because I had a good 5-6 year break from the baby stage, or because I'm older now, or because I know it all goes by much too fast and even the most difficult and tiring things will pass eventually, but I'm just enjoying you so much more than I was able to with your older sisters. I was so stressed out and miserable overall when I had your sisters. I had a lot of things going on mentally, emotionally, and spiritually that was hindering me from being the kind of mom I wanted to be. This time around, I'm in a much better place and even your crying makes me smile. It may also be because your crying is so sweet and sorrowful instead of angry and demanding.
Anyway, I can't wait to see you grow even more in the coming weeks. Your sisters absolutely adore you. They sing to you whenever they can, always greet you when we go to pick them up from school, and give you endless hugs and kisses even if you don't seem to like it at times. Haha~ They're going to smother you with so much love as you grow up. We all are. I know you will definitely have no shortage of love and care in your life.
Even my mom, your hal muh nee, came to visit two weeks ago and she was so taken by your smiles and sweetness. I know you won't see her as much as the rest of us since she lives in San Francisco, but I hope that you'll grow up knowing her immense love and awesome goofiness. She's an amazing woman, as is Daddy's mom, your Ahma. You are surrounded by incredible examples and I will continue to try to work on myself so I could be one of those as well.
I love you and thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. I can't believe I didn't want a third baby. I can't imagine my life without you, little one.
You are talking so much lately. Just the other day, while Kaia was talking to you, you laughed for the very first time. Before, you used to have short little shouts here and there that sounded sort of like the beginning of a good laugh, but this time you full on laughed with your head thrown back and mouth wide open. It was the sweetest and cutest sound in the world.
You're only 2 months and 2 weeks old, yet you're already cooing up a storm, smiling from ear-to-ear, pushing super hard with your legs whenever i hold you up onto my lap (almost like you're just about ready to stand on your own), making all kinds of adorable expressions with your eyebrows, eyes, and mouth, sleeping through the night, taking long naps during the day, on and on.
Just a week or two ago, you were sleeping in the car and for short spurts here and there, but this past week you've been going down in the crib downstairs for 2-3 hours. I'm so proud of you. I can't believe how much you've already developed and grown in the past couple of months. I STILL can't believe you're here in our lives, that you're my little baby that I can hold and kiss.
I've been telling Daddy that I'm so much more calm and joyful this time around. It might be because I had a good 5-6 year break from the baby stage, or because I'm older now, or because I know it all goes by much too fast and even the most difficult and tiring things will pass eventually, but I'm just enjoying you so much more than I was able to with your older sisters. I was so stressed out and miserable overall when I had your sisters. I had a lot of things going on mentally, emotionally, and spiritually that was hindering me from being the kind of mom I wanted to be. This time around, I'm in a much better place and even your crying makes me smile. It may also be because your crying is so sweet and sorrowful instead of angry and demanding.
Anyway, I can't wait to see you grow even more in the coming weeks. Your sisters absolutely adore you. They sing to you whenever they can, always greet you when we go to pick them up from school, and give you endless hugs and kisses even if you don't seem to like it at times. Haha~ They're going to smother you with so much love as you grow up. We all are. I know you will definitely have no shortage of love and care in your life.
Even my mom, your hal muh nee, came to visit two weeks ago and she was so taken by your smiles and sweetness. I know you won't see her as much as the rest of us since she lives in San Francisco, but I hope that you'll grow up knowing her immense love and awesome goofiness. She's an amazing woman, as is Daddy's mom, your Ahma. You are surrounded by incredible examples and I will continue to try to work on myself so I could be one of those as well.
I love you and thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. I can't believe I didn't want a third baby. I can't imagine my life without you, little one.
Sunday, January 8, 2017
My very first entry to you
Hello my Ellie,
You are just a little over three weeks old now. I can't believe it's already been a month since you've entered our lives.
It's been a struggle from the get go. Labor and delivery was the most intense and insane ordeal. I was in more pain than I thought was humanly possible.
These past few weeks, nursing you has been a huge struggle. At first, I was so engorged that you were having the hardest time latching on. You tore me up and I was in tears at every feeding. I was making way too much milk for you to handle. Then, as my body got more used to your feeding patterns, it started to slow down. Some days, I don't seem to make enough and you cry out of frustration and hunger. Other days, I make too much and make you choke. It never seems to be just right. I pray that I would be able to provide for you longer than this month. If God has it that I can't make enough to take care of you, I'll have to be flexible and look for the healthiest formula to feed you. I made the mistake of not giving into formula with your sister, Alana, even though she always seemed hungry even after a feeding for nearly ten months. Once we switched to formula, she slept so well and was a much happier baby. I don't want to do that to you. So yes, we will keep trying this nursing thing but once it takes away from your quality of life I will have to throw in the towel. I love you too much to watch you go hungry.
Being a mom for the third time around has taught me to be much more laid back. I cried and freaked out with every little thing with Kaia. With Alana, although I wasn't as afraid of everything we had just moved from SD to Oahu, we were living with your grandparents and had no personal space, AND we were renovating an entire home, which took up any free time we had. So, it was definitely a very stressful time.
This time around, although we are living with your grandma, she's respected our time as a family. Also, your sisters a great help in taking care of you. Whenever you need a diaper change, Kaia is the first to jump up and pick you up to change you. It's actually really sweet how much she loves taking care of you and holding you. Alana isn't as big as Kaia so she can't hold you as easily but she constantly tries to get some cuddle time with you as well.
Everyone loves spending time with you even if you're sleeping or fussing most of the time.
With each passing day, you get more and more adorable, lovely, and wonderful. I cannot wait to hear more coos, see more smiles, and interact with you. Right now, you look around a lot and fuss for milk when you're awake. In a few months, I'm sure you'll be reacting to everything we say and do and laughing at things. Sigh~ It's going to be such bliss to hear a huge chuckle for the first time.
You may do things earlier since you opened your eyes just seconds after coming out of my womb. It was incredible. You were trying to look around and see what all the noise and commotion was. Daddy got it on video so I've been watching it over and over again.
In less than a week you will have been in our lives for a month. You are truly my sunshine. Even though I am in pain, exhausted, and stressed from not being able to produce enough milk for you at times, I look at you and all of that just melts away. You're here. After a long 7-8 months of wondering about you, you're here in my arms. I am so blessed. I love you more than you'll ever know. Even before I knew how you looked, who you were, I loved you. The moment I felt a flutter in my tummy and I found out I was pregnant with you, I loved you. I love you, Ellie.
You are just a little over three weeks old now. I can't believe it's already been a month since you've entered our lives.
It's been a struggle from the get go. Labor and delivery was the most intense and insane ordeal. I was in more pain than I thought was humanly possible.
These past few weeks, nursing you has been a huge struggle. At first, I was so engorged that you were having the hardest time latching on. You tore me up and I was in tears at every feeding. I was making way too much milk for you to handle. Then, as my body got more used to your feeding patterns, it started to slow down. Some days, I don't seem to make enough and you cry out of frustration and hunger. Other days, I make too much and make you choke. It never seems to be just right. I pray that I would be able to provide for you longer than this month. If God has it that I can't make enough to take care of you, I'll have to be flexible and look for the healthiest formula to feed you. I made the mistake of not giving into formula with your sister, Alana, even though she always seemed hungry even after a feeding for nearly ten months. Once we switched to formula, she slept so well and was a much happier baby. I don't want to do that to you. So yes, we will keep trying this nursing thing but once it takes away from your quality of life I will have to throw in the towel. I love you too much to watch you go hungry.
Being a mom for the third time around has taught me to be much more laid back. I cried and freaked out with every little thing with Kaia. With Alana, although I wasn't as afraid of everything we had just moved from SD to Oahu, we were living with your grandparents and had no personal space, AND we were renovating an entire home, which took up any free time we had. So, it was definitely a very stressful time.
This time around, although we are living with your grandma, she's respected our time as a family. Also, your sisters a great help in taking care of you. Whenever you need a diaper change, Kaia is the first to jump up and pick you up to change you. It's actually really sweet how much she loves taking care of you and holding you. Alana isn't as big as Kaia so she can't hold you as easily but she constantly tries to get some cuddle time with you as well.
Everyone loves spending time with you even if you're sleeping or fussing most of the time.
With each passing day, you get more and more adorable, lovely, and wonderful. I cannot wait to hear more coos, see more smiles, and interact with you. Right now, you look around a lot and fuss for milk when you're awake. In a few months, I'm sure you'll be reacting to everything we say and do and laughing at things. Sigh~ It's going to be such bliss to hear a huge chuckle for the first time.
You may do things earlier since you opened your eyes just seconds after coming out of my womb. It was incredible. You were trying to look around and see what all the noise and commotion was. Daddy got it on video so I've been watching it over and over again.
In less than a week you will have been in our lives for a month. You are truly my sunshine. Even though I am in pain, exhausted, and stressed from not being able to produce enough milk for you at times, I look at you and all of that just melts away. You're here. After a long 7-8 months of wondering about you, you're here in my arms. I am so blessed. I love you more than you'll ever know. Even before I knew how you looked, who you were, I loved you. The moment I felt a flutter in my tummy and I found out I was pregnant with you, I loved you. I love you, Ellie.
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